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| Иа∂īяα |
I'm a retard in the making.
I have a crazy obsession, with boxers.
Extrovert by day, an introvert by night.
Maturity does not grow with age.
& i hope that explains everything.

& My ultimate goal?
Perfection.

Done.

tatas,
i know you love me. xoxo.


{I've promised myself. to never cry over not being pretty enough.}


music.


MusicPlaylist
Music Playlist at MixPod.com


friends.
Jovena.
Fazlina.
Dellie.
Najiha.
Kelly.
Fana.
Kristie.

thanks
© * étoile filante
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past
August 2009
September 2009
October 2009
November 2009
December 2009
January 2010
title: Justice not met.
date: Thursday, August 27, 2009
time:7:18 AM
Following up the recent reports, on an Muslim women from Malaysia that was sentenced by the Islamic Court for public caning, has got me engrossed with the thought that whether there's still justice in this world. Isn't it too harsh as a punishment for a woman, to face a lifetime of humiliation and shame just for drinking? I do honestly think,that the judge's verdict is too crude. I know, i do realize that Malaysia is an Islamic Country. But isn't her sins between her & God. She'll get her punishment in the after life. Don't they realize that such harsh punishments can have a long-term effects on her? Her future is gone. You think people want to accept her in society anymore? Besides that, she'll gained recognition for 'the woman who got spanked in public for drinking'. Her Job is a goner. Would you like a convict to be your secretary? Your Boss? Your employer? No?

that What's with raiding nightclubs to catch these kind of people? Look at Singapore. Am i not wrong to say that at least 1/4 of the Muslim Teenagers here in Singapore drinks? If such laws were implemented in Singapore, don't tell me they are going to carry out public canning to those people too? I find the Laws are to strict. So what, if it's a Muslim country? You don't expect everyone to be like cookie-cut , where everyone's perfect & follows the law. Despite the governments dire attempts to keep it's country as tranquil as possible, listen, it's a stringent act do set a law such as this.

"Muslims can be fined, jailed for up to three years or given six strokes of the cane for drinking alcohol, but prosecutions are extremely rare."

I've got three words. What-the-heck. & what's the next law? An old-age prosecution brought up such as: "Couples who had premarital sex are to be buried in the sand with only their heads showing & are to be thrown stones on their head till they die?"


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title: ;like finally.
date: Sunday, August 23, 2009
time:7:14 AM

Blogger has been down for days. Firstly, i want to say, i did horribly for my Malay O level. Not that i failed or anything, I missed my target score by one grade. So, I'm retaking it. Now i have to waste my time & effort to study this useless language again. Peribahasa & what nots. Due to my desperate attempt to get an 'A', Fizah & Nadiah are going to force me to learn this dumbfuck language. We started by going to the library, I sweared, i almost vomited reading the first page of this book called, " Cinta Kita." So i read the first page.

" What's a Haryati?" I said. {honestly, i thought it's something like another word for sunlight.}

"That's a name!" both of them shouted.


I know, I'm such a loser. Always been. At least i became Bio Queen. Yay! New Year resolution, cleared. 19.5/20 . Not bad ah? *grin* Prelims next week. & VP told us, to get 25 points and below or, no September holiday! Need to return school, for extra classes. I know, i won't make the cut.

Prelim marks that i can foresee myself obtaining:
Maths: E8
English:C6 {Ms Aljunied is one hell of a lady.}
Biology:B4 { As much as i want an 'A', i know the school paper is merciless. }
Humanities:C6 { Venice is just damn gross. }
Mother Tongue:C5 {Oh boy.}

And what do you get, A 29. Oh wow, how facinating.

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{ you have to kiss alot of frogs, before you finally meet your prince}



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title: ;melancholy.
date: Sunday, August 16, 2009
time:9:35 AM
Hate this guy Pictures, Images and Photos

Been living in a dismal life for almost a year. Maybe Mimi was right, I've got to stop dwelling in my past. If you asked me, the truth is, I've never been happy this year. Never. Guess my only Eden of Joviality is in school, where my friends are the only source of happiness that i ever receive. If only happiness were packed and suppressed into tiny capsules for sale to anyone feeling blue. Wouldn't world be a better place, where everyone unhappiness may cease to nothingness by just taking one of those capsules?

Maybe one shall ask, what is the cause of your misery? It's my ex. He practically sucked all those bliss from me. Well, i detest him so much. Why? Imagine, you love someone so deeply & you gave him your whole sincere heart to him, thinking he does the same for you, and in the end, you found out, wow, he's faking all this while. How hurting shall that feel for you? I really abhor this kind of soul, & i believe Karma has it's way in everything. And one day it'll get him. If i ever have a whiff of he's scent or glance of he's dishy face, i swear, I'll transform to full predator mode, & kick him in the nuts. Ahh! i feel so better now.

Today 17 August 2009, & i can declare that i have officially gotten over my dishy faced, Bechok nak mampos , Mr. Perfect Tak Menjadi, ex boyfriend, who have poor photo shopping skills for he's pictures. Nadira is ecstatic. I really so very pity he's girl.


I hate my ex Pictures, Images and Photos


{ Nadira found happiness thanks to words of wisdom by Mimi. }




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title: UP! (:
date: Saturday, August 15, 2009
time:8:21 AM
I love ice cream Pictures, Images and Photos

My hair is burned, and I've learn my lesson, never to venture to unidentified hair salons. I just straightened my fringe, because it's photo-taking on Tuesday. The tips of my hair feels like the ends of a broomstick,because of the professionalism of the hairdresser. But it's okay, thank god, for Dove Intense Damage Therapy Cream, my hair seems to be in better condition. ( What, i sound like an Advert. )


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I watched Up! with Izaki yesterday. Miss h
im so much! It's been a while since we saw each other. I thought he left and flew with the wind. Just like the term, i don't know where i heard it, that goes like this. " If you were to return to me, that means we were meant to be." Be as friends again of cause. Just don't want to hurt another amiable soul again. I still remembered what my sister said, " Of all the guys, you introduced to me, I like Izaki the best. " He's such a fine, dandy and warm young man, trust me, I've never had so much fun with someone of opposite sex before. Why? Because i am truly myself with him, which i can't with most guys. He brought me places that not many would bring me, eg. Singapore Airport just to eat Popeyes. To the zoo. To build sandcastles in the sand. Who would travel all the way from Vivo to Boonlay just to send a slice of cake from starbucks to you? Pick you up from school almost everyday? Calls you 15 times a day? Fold paper hearts from receipts, even though it may not be the best looking heart? I doubt many would do that.- He may not be Mr Oh-So-Fantastic, but i am grateful to have someone as such in my life. Thank you Izaki for being a part of it! Life without you was never the same. Thanks for returning! :D


UP POSTER Pictures, Images and Photos

The movie well, it was great. It's about an old man awaiting for death, and while waiting, he got a brilliant idea to blow up thousands of balloons and connect it to his chimneys, so that it can fly all the way to South America to place his house beside a waterfall called Paradise Falls. & on the way, he found out that he was travelling with a boy scout that got stuck with him. blah blah blah... talking dog... blah blah .. evil artefact collecter... blah blah...a weird looking bird called Kevin. blah blah.. then live happily ever after, the end. Heh, not really a reliable summary of the movie eh, Jus watch it. It's a 4/5.



{ fly away with me into the sun! }


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title: ;demoralised.
date:
time:8:17 AM
They say failure, is the key for motivation in learning. Everyone experience failure, at a point in their life. Today, I was tormented by failure. Honestly, I find failure very demoralizing. Why? You wreck your brains & your innards, till the wee hours of the night, burning the midnight oil & guess what? Wow!A 6 out of 18 for your recent Physics test.How encouraging. It's pulls down your self-esteem to do better. You should have seen my blood-drained face. I swear, my soul just escaped. I really felt like decapitating my Physics teacher. It's a fear. It's built in me, to reject any failure.I can't deal with failure. It drives me insane. That's why, for every test, i go through a sedulous routine of revision. Because i can't let failure get me. The moral of the story is, do not sleep in Physics class. (: I need to fight my fear.

I really should pass my maths quiz tomorrow or I'll be walking around the school with a deathly aura surrounding me.

:D
(P.S : Malay O's Result on 19th)


FAIL. Pictures, Images and Photos


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title: ;& it's tatas to the other blog.
date: Monday, August 10, 2009
time:1:07 AM

& I'll give you 5 reasons why i ditched my old blog & didn't post anything for god knows how long.

1) When, i look at my old post, i feel like vomiting.

2) I realized, that using blogger, can edit my skin.
3) Hand phone spoil , can't upload pictures.
4) I want to forget my past.
5) Too busy with O's


;Why yellow room? I like yellow & my room is brightly painted in yellow. Simple. Yellow is the epitome of warmth, happiness, friendship, hope & optimism. The qualities i lack for as a soul. I'm more of a cold-hearted, sour, negative thinking, anti-social monster. So, hopefully this colour changes me to be a more, umm, sensible being. The colours you pick, tells a lot
about people' you know.


O level Malay results are coming out on Wednesday. Wish me luck. I really hope i get at least a bloody B3. Obviously that won't happen, I've got a premonition of me, being devastated and slapped in the face with a B4 or C5. { you , see. I'm very negative. } I know it's too late to do anything right now.



{ & i'm blasting off to study Geog & Biology test.}



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